Homeward Bound

Well, since last Thursday I've been obsessing over this problem I have: I am not married to Lily's dad anymore, therefore we have to "share" her (WTF...who wants to have to share a kid?). Since I up and moved 500 miles away in February, Ben and I decided that Lily would stay with him approximately 2 months out of the year. Well...I thought I would be fine with this, but I am not. I am so NOT fine with not seeing her for 6 weeks, and her not seeing her daddy 10 months out of the year that I decided on Friday (6/16) that I'm moving home. I actually got teary eyed when I told Andy...It made me realize how close I've gotten to my people down here (and some of it was the fear of disappointing him, I think).
I am not sure what I'll be doing in the way of employment...there is not an opening at Covenant, but I did find an opening in Collections at Covenant's "sister" (more like most hated step-sister) company, US Xpress. My former manager, Janette, said I should apply there...and I had actually already done that. I feel certain I am very qualified, although I am not sure if that's the job I want. I have the opportunity to work part time in Jasper, while Lily goes to school. She will be in school, so I won't have to worry with daycare. If I'm around in town, working part time, I can fix my schedule so I can get her when she's out of school. I feel much better about this solution...and that is why I'm not sure I want to work for USX. Plus, its a lot further than Covenant from Jasper.
I think that being here was something necessary for me to decide that family (married parents or not) need to be together. And Ben, Lily, and I are family. That in itself makes me sad too...but that's another blog for another day.
Yippieee!!!