Homeward Bound

Well, since last Thursday I've been obsessing over this problem I have: I am not married to Lily's dad anymore, therefore we have to "share" her (WTF...who wants to have to share a kid?). Since I up and moved 500 miles away in February, Ben and I decided that Lily would stay with him approximately 2 months out of the year. Well...I thought I would be fine with this, but I am not. I am so NOT fine with not seeing her for 6 weeks, and her not seeing her daddy 10 months out of the year that I decided on Friday (6/16) that I'm moving home. I actually got teary eyed when I told Andy...It made me realize how close I've gotten to my people down here (and some of it was the fear of disappointing him, I think).
I am not sure what I'll be doing in the way of employment...there is not an opening at Covenant, but I did find an opening in Collections at Covenant's "sister" (more like most hated step-sister) company, US Xpress. My former manager, Janette, said I should apply there...and I had actually already done that. I feel certain I am very qualified, although I am not sure if that's the job I want. I have the opportunity to work part time in Jasper, while Lily goes to school. She will be in school, so I won't have to worry with daycare. If I'm around in town, working part time, I can fix my schedule so I can get her when she's out of school. I feel much better about this solution...and that is why I'm not sure I want to work for USX. Plus, its a lot further than Covenant from Jasper.
I think that being here was something necessary for me to decide that family (married parents or not) need to be together. And Ben, Lily, and I are family. That in itself makes me sad too...but that's another blog for another day.
Yippieee!!!

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common. You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude. However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love. You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Rudy & The Dilema

I am allergic to this sweet, cuddly kitty...I love him though. Lily and I got him from the Waveland animal shelter in March. I have a guy named Dennis that will take him, but Rudy will have to live outside...which raises some questions: what if he get run over? Where will he sleep? Will the other cats Dennis has like Rudy? What if something happens to him? I feel like I made a commitment to Rudy when we adopted him, and now I'm letting him down. I've also thought about asking Ben to take him...then he could live in the house, and sleep in the bed (like he likes to do). I love Rudy-Tudy.....and I don't know what do to. I'm very sad (although I suspect Rudy will be glad to get away - FAR away - from Lily).

10 Reasons I Hate Ben

10. I am his ex-wife...I'm supposed to hate him
9. He gets to do whatever he wants to, whenever he wants to
8. All his friends think I'm mean
7. He only cares about himself
6. He isn't helpful in any way
5. He hardly ever answers his phone
4. Belinda raised him
3. He isn't "sure" what happened to the money in his account (sorry Mike)
2. Lily misses him (see reason #5)
1. He's a totally selfish person (see reasons 2-10)