Every day, whether we like it or not. I stole my title from Andy's blog...but it seemed appropriate given what today has brought on. One of my very best friends had surgery today for ovarian cancer. I do not know the details, but I am sure doctors removed her ovaries and also took some of the tumor from her abdomen. Her sister emailed several of us this news today. I knew that she was going for tests yesterday, her doctor found that her liver and spleen were enlarged...I just couldn't imagine something this terrible. I know everything happens for a reason, and that God is in control; but I am selfish and I don't want to lose my friend and I don't want her to suffer. I couldn't take my eyes off the word "chemotherapy", in the email from her sister...just sat and stared and thought about the effects it will have on her body, and the way she will feel, and how scared she must be. I wish I could be there with her to encourage her. But I'm not. I guess that's what I'm struggling with the most, knowing that I can't just drive downtown to Parkridge and see her. I had to shut myself in the bathroom here...then Andy came to see what was wrong, I could hardly tell him. I didn't want to say it, it would make me cry more (ya'll who know me, know I hate to cry)...but I finally got it out. Then it was over...I started to calm down, to realize that God is in control.
Sometimes its just so hard to be a grown-up...Lily has no clue why her uncle Terry died, or what cancer is. She has no clue right now that one of my best friends in laid up in the hospital, scared that she's going to die. She is thinking about Tom Davis, how short the time was before he was gone...all I can do is pray, because life is happening.
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