An Email From Lily

I got this email today, from Lily. She wrote it using my mom's email account while I was at work. Mom said she did it all by herself!

Dear Mommy,
You are my favorite
person! Is
it impossible?! I already sent an email to Daddy .Hearts to you!
You are my#1!!!!!!!!#1#1#1#1#1##1#1#1#1#1#1#1#1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Love Love Love Love!!!!!!!!!
,Lily

The Bean is Back in Town

YAY! Lily is home! This past week was her spring break, and mine was last week (bad plan, huh?). Mom & Dad are in Portland, OR and so I had to send her to the inlaw's for the week. Ben brought her home about an hour ago...and I was SO glad to see her! It was nice having a week "off"...weird to think I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted to do it. I'm not sure I would like living like that all the time though.

Me, this week....I've been staying up until ungodly hours, watching too much tv, doing too much texting (LOL...HAHA). I went with Amanda to Tractor Supply and she bought 12 chickens and a duck. She made me promise that I would come visit the duck. Its a peking duck, and I really want one here but Stanley would eat it...or it would eat him :) I had good intentions to go to sleep at a reasonable hour last night, but that didn't happen. I layed down, and layed there and layed there and layed there..........then I finally got back up and got back online. I listened to Gavin DeGraw and browsed for cute men on myspace. Yes, I said I browsed for cute me on myspace. I actually sent emails to some of them too. Can you believe it? Well, I can't.

I love that my life is weird, messy, maybe complicated...totally crazy. But its also normal and wonderful, and I am super happy. I know some people that want to keep their life in a neat box, tied up with a pretty ribbon. I'm embracing the fact that life is life, and its usually pretty screwed up. I'm thankful I'm human, and not perfect...I can't even try to look perfect. I love me :) (and Bean and Sin Dog).

Beans & Germs

I have been at home for the past 2 days with a sick kid...while I have enjoyed not being in Dramaland, I don't think I'll make a very good lab grade this week.

I need to blog more. Its fun, although I'm sure no one reads it anymore.

Oh, does anyone know what Wubbzy is? Is he a cat? Or just a weird little dude?

Dear Ediots

Why is it that some people never respond when you say hi to them on facebook? I just don't get it...I've become "friends" with several people I went to high school with, and written on their walls...and I get nothing back. Why even ask to be my friend? I'm pretty sure that my profile isn't private, so they can look all they want at my pictures without being my "friend". It just really pisses me off!!!

Ok, I'm done with that rant...

Last night I went to the Turkey Banquet with Amanda (Nichole, and her family were there). It was a blast! Hot men, beer, BBQ, and country music. I thought I might meet some super-hot hunter, who would wisk me off in his truck...but getting to look at 100 + of them was satisfying. There is just so much crap that comes with a relationship and I guess I'm not ready for that. Well, on some levels I am :) I was going to take pictures, but the camera batteries were dead.

I need to blog more often...its therapeutic.

(editor's note: I know I spelled idiot wrong, but it was probably one of those people who won't write me back that left the note on my desk in 3rd grade that began; "dear ediot"...yeah, I'm the idiot!)

Ugg

I have to go to a parent/teacher conference today...and sit there while Lily's teacher tells me that Lily doesn't pay attention in class, that she doesn't follow along when the class is reading out loud, that she talks WAY too much. I am trying to psych myself up for it, but I know its gonna piss me off. I have this idea that her teacher just doesn't like her. She didn't have any trouble last year, and I don't think she's changed that much over the summer (to make her suddenly unruly, and wild). I even dreamed about it last night! And I feel exhausted now...a whole night of dreaming about sitting there with her teacher, listening to her rail on my kid.
All this, while Ben just breezes through his day and works, and plays, and goes out. I bet the man will NEVER sit through a parent/teacher conference! Its so hard not to be a hater :)

Mission Impossible?

My friend Amanda is on a mission...to find me a man! So far, she's taken me camping - where I met a whole bunch of men, I've met one of her ex's, and am in the process of being set up with yet another guy. I've already been through the woods on the back of Lance's 4 wheeler, and now I think I'm in for even more wild stuff! Now, I know that 4 wheeler riding isn't exactly wild, but for me its a journey into uncharted territory.
The match with Lance backfired...turns out the boy just wants to have fun (not that I insinuated otherwise). Her ex...well, he's her EX. This new guy...Kevin...never talked to him, seen him, I have heard of him though (I think he went to high school with Ben). Via text messaging (I think) Amanda has "pitched" me to Kevin. So, now I wait...to see what will happen with this latest love match (can you hear my sarcasm?). Life is never dull ;)

First Day of First Grade

My tiny kid is growing up!